Two months without an update? Boy I certainly have been growing lax. So much has happened in the last few months alone, yet at the same time, it feels like absolutely nothing has happened all at the same time.
The latest major updates are that the job search is going horrendously terrible. I've had one good interview, but after a few weeks of waiting (and being told to stop calling back to check in), I've decided to write that job off as me not getting it. If he offers, I'll gladly still take the position, but I am not going to sit around and wait for months for this guy to finally decide to do something. I understand he's been having issues getting interviewees (or so he claimed, at least). Not my problem. You told me when you interviewed me that you were looking to fill the position fairly soonish. You also told me that you'd get back to me within the week. Considering you appear to have made no progress in either of those areas, I can only assume that you just don't want to tell me outright that you don't wish to hire me for the position. That's fine, I'd just prefer to be told that instead of being given false hope.
Am I bitter? Oh yeah. I also think I'm entitled to be.
Major things that have been going on. Aside from struggling to find some new line of work, not much else. I think now that things appear to hopefully be settling down to try and change my plans around a bit. I need to start getting myself back into doing artistic things. Attempting to do that is, as anything with me, progressing slowly. I'm just not sure what to *do*. Hard to be creative when you don't know what to create (or even where to start). To that end, I'm trying to get myself back into some modeling challenge-type things. The hope is that by working on some speed modeling stuff, I might actually be able to get back into the groove of things. I seem to do fairly well when I give myself deadlines to adhere to.
The last few months have been extremely difficult. Due to some bullshittery revolving around Eve's financial aid from school, I was basically forced to shoulder a tremendous financial burden. Cue mass freakouts, paralyzing depression, and fits of frustration. Most of that seems to be in the past now, and while I've lost some important things as a result, things seem to be indicating a positive outcome, assuming something really bad isn't just looming on the horizon. With any luck, the worst of the year is already over, and all I have to do is just kind of ride this crap out until something truly fortuitous occurs.
On the gaming side of things, a number of recent procurements have occurred. We are now in possession of a shiny new black Wii. Eve is tearing shit up with Mario Kart Wii, I'm closing in on the end of Metroid Prime 3 (which I've borrowed from a friend), and I've got Twilight Princess and Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World sitting on the sidelines. Combine this with the new Castlevania (special edition, still sealed T-T), Disgaea 3, Katamari Forever, and Super Street Fighter IV, I ought to have a full plate. Except for the fact that we'll be picking up New Vegas either tonight or tomorrow afternoon.
... so yeah, I think it's safe to say that I should be good on the vidya for the rest of the year. Not that there's much of that left by this point...
Work on my d20 Modification has reached the main phase. It's been launched, and so far, so good I suppose. There's quite a bit of stuff to be re-done, however, and I've been seriously considering working on adding in some more class-changing abilities based on another author's work (who has already given me permission to use his work if I like, so long as I give him credit where it is due). Speaking with him has given me quite a number of ideas of how to finally fix some issues regarding magic and FX, so I think I might actually get d20 Modern (and Pathfinder in general) on a level playing field, without having to change much, and also while keeping conventions as similar as possible. The only thing bothering me regarding the magic overhaul is due to the manner in which I have chosen to handle magic (and by extension, Psionics since it will likely work on a very similar principle) is that I'll have to write completely new classes (or, at the least gutting the previously existing classes to the point where they are pretty much no longer what they used to be). In addition, I'll have to be adding in new Advanced and Prestige classes for these, to make the expansion truly complete.
And then there's having to make the minor 'updates' to Pathfinder: which is basically overhauling the skills in Pathfinder that weren't mentioned in the d20 Modern system, granting them level-based progressions, synergy bonuses, etc. So that way there should be one big, huge happy skill-list family. Amusingly enough, the Knowledge skills really shouldn't overlap much - so you could pretty much mix and match some of them, with GM approval.
On one final note, the weather is getting colder again. Much nicer too. Maybe this is part of the reason why, but I seriously doubt it... but lately I've been dreaming again. Only these aren't my usual dreams. They are longer. More intense. They're sticking in my mind a bit longer, even though a lot of the relevant bits that tie my dreams together seem to be getting lost with time. I might start going to bed earlier just so I can see if I might not be able to start a dreamlog thing by waking up earlier too. Even stranger is that in the last week alone, I have had four seperate instances of deja vu. Actually, I'm not sure I can call it that... more like remembering that I had dreamt these things before. Once the instance sneaks up on me, I know it - word for word, second for second. Including my trying desperately not to freak out about knowing what's just happened.
These moments seem to also be followed by a deep sense of foreboding. After so many instances in such a short span of time, I am growing concerned. If there are things like divine signs or whatnot, and dreams are a gateway to such things, then all these moments I have been experiencing can either be comforting reminders that I am on the right path, and that everything will be just fine. Or they could be stark reminders of "hey, we warned you about this shit ahead of time and you didn't listen."
Considering that these things tend to freak me out, and are followed with negative feelings, I think it ought to be obvious which side of the fence I fall on with this.
Headache is starting to rise, so I may call it a night. Getting tired anyhow.
We'll see if I can update this thing again soonish. Time will tell.